If I Go To Hell

If I go to hell would you defy God his soul?

Your an angel and I'm sinner who can't atone.

I've made so many mistakes, I met you to late,

And I fear an eternity separated awaits.

God And All Which He Has Made

Imagine a place God rules instead of man,

I have found it and all it’s beauty.

Imagine where being humble is virtue,

I have found it and all it’s honesty.

Imagine a home where passion is king,

I have found it and all it’s transparency.

Imagine that forever seems short,

I have found her and all her perfection.

There's A Storm Outside

As the rain battered the glass window

he laid in the bed he made.

Twilight approached and his worries fade.

Thunder rattled the sky and eased his mind.

He was safe from all that was outside

As the rain battered the glass window.

Tired and exhausted he fell to the mattress.

His mess surrounded him in a beautiful clusterfuck, as

he laid in the bed he made.

“No more caring.” he thought as his eyelids dropped.

“This will be the start of new chapter.” when

Twilight approached and his worries fade.

Falling

One hand grasped to cherished memories

Another holding onto unrealistic dreams

I’m falling with no way to brace the impact

I’m falling, unwilling to let go and help myself

Obsession

Love? Lust? I simply generalize and designate it obsession
Of course not recognized and of course completely unrequited
To you I exist yet I am so insignificant, so worthless
Which I think is worse since I can touch you but never hold

I will never know the taste of your lips against mine
I will never hear your voice so fragile while you rest in my embrace
I will never see your smile reserved strictly for behind closed doors
I will never share my life with you the way my heart craves

So close my imagination need not wonder far

You're so open my shame is nearly non-existent
And like any lover it is covered by my need to read you like a book

And I have

I know your flaws, I know your perfections
Your faults, your success, your scars, and that which has hurt you the most

I know of your lies, your truths, your past, your present
And I pray for a future with me forever by your side

But a dream is just that, a dream
For however real as I sleep, never is it so when I wake

Therefor I have begun to indulge myself gradually in false reality
From pure ecstasy with you below and a most unsatisfactory realization of mirage
To spending most moments in a very embarrassing daydream
That I find harder to let go of with each occurrence

I discover this obsession to be increasingly unhealthy
Self-loathing, embarrassment, hate, love, need, rejection, and more so than all of that...confusion

Am I living a lie by living with obsession?
Is this obsession causing me to lie to others?
Yes. No. I haven't the slightest clue.

All I know is this obsession, love or lust.
Is causing me to see your face in everything around me

Food is bland. The world is grey. My body is numb.
And the longer I live with this and without you
The more I wither. The more I die.
The more I lose touch with reality in favor of a lie.

Love Eternally

With all my heart I wish this moment would never come to a close

As a smile darts across your face and you begin to laugh

When everything ceases and all I see is you radiating gloriously

Glowing beautifully, blinding me from the distractions presented

With all my heart I pray each day I am able to be with you

Even for a fleeting moment to sustain my need. No! My addiction!

The constant craving where I cannot seem to remove you from my mind

And nothing else matter's, only you and your memory which cannot suffice

Love instantly. Love perfectly. Love ever-lasting.

Never Forgotten

When a beautiful soul is quickly ripped from this plane of existence
We can do nothing but weep, pray, mourn, and hope we are being looked down upon
Belief that beyond our rudimentary universe there is a gorgeous creation
In which our loved ones who have passed away can live again on the far side of our earthly concern

We trust that any suffering they seasoned while among us is relieved from them
And more so they are again in company of their beloved who were taken away
We desire them to once again be youthful and full of energy, forever young
Able to enjoy whatever brought a smile to their face while living beside us

I refuse to accept a reality in which everything is created so haphazardly and random
For I see and can realize the stunning beauty that surrounds me in all directions
And of course the horror of watching someone so cherished ripped from my grasp
So suddenly that I curse the heavens in spite and anger...and beyond that confusion

But soon enough my chaotic emotions dwindle to acceptance and the aforementioned hope
Hope and remembrance of the joy they brought us whenever in their presence
The honoring of the life they lived, their accomplishments and triumphs
And never forgetting the simple fact that even though physically they're not here

They will always stand beside us in spirit as long as our love stays always true

Building True Love

He held her in a tight, warm embrace
His arms clasp around her lovingly
And she could hear his heart beating
(For only her)

Their love was true, strong, and everlasting
Weathering the most devastating storms
And holding against the most turbulent waves
That would break any normal fragile relationship

But what they had was not fragile or frail
They had built their hearts together
Inch by inch, brick by brick
On a solid foundation

They created something so beautiful to last
Something constructed with a long-term vision
A future planned out where they could grow old
And age together and die together with the same love

But of course there are still faults and mistakes
And instead of continuing with only hopes
They add, tear down, and rebuild…fortify
Vowing that nothing will break what they cherish

And to this day their love is stronger
Their love is more complete than ever before
Their love is pure and true
And their love seems closer to forever

Love is random but true love is not by chance
True love is sculpted with care and compassion
It is learning from mistakes and moving forward
True love is built hand in hand and shared with each other

True love is making something to last beyond tomorrow